Saturday, December 28, 2013

The Lugubrious Game

Dak Blitz nonchalantly raises a joint to his purple lips, takes a drag.  The chemicals diffuse into his blood stream.  He exhales a burst of charmed blue smoke while perching on a black, cast iron bench.  The sidewalk expanse upon which the bench rests is lightly rock strewn and sparkles underneath the shoes of passersby promenading along the treed parkway.  Denizens intermittently call upon the victual vending carts parked on Crescent Boulevard on this summer evening languorously drifting into vernal twilight.  Dak unbuttons his ebony suit and caresses his business emblem tie placing it at a more suitable hang after a day of enterprise.  A breeze flows through the trees above rustling the leaves an apropos metaphorical picture of his mind.  The enlivening and enchanting auricular modes are heightened amidst the mellow neuron glow burn. 

Across Crescent Boulevard, an ivory ambulance laced with crimson lettering topped by silent, rotating, lurid lights pulls into one of the hospital center drives and stops.  A navy blue clad operator jumps out of the passenger side and officiously clambers to the rear doors and opens them.  Two more operators, also clad in navy blue, jump onto the pavement through the opened hatchway, turn, and mechanically withdraw a gurney with a woman strapped down and immobilized.  The mollified, frenzied shrieks intertwined with dejected sobs reach the distant Dak as he takes another drag from the modest zig-zag papered joint, eyes afire with leisurely electric intensity.  His focus shifts then, driven by a cosmic narrative force, to the early crescent moon casting a lambent silver glow and hanging like a pendulum blade ensconced in the womb of the incipiently dimming azure expanse. 

The ambulance operators robotically escort the screaming, crestfallen, irate, and hysterical woman through the automatic glass doors reflecting the quotidian prosaic park scene into the bowels of the bio-hazard receptacle adorned halls of the hospital complex.

Dr. Windglow, a severe glare to his face adorned with gentle eyes, enters the stall of the woman three months pregnant now that she appears to have regained some semblance of equanimity after her tumultuous entry.  Her arms and legs are still strapped to the gurney as she looks up with a vehement expression on her face with distant fogged over eyes at the approaching doctor.

"Ms. Calloway," the doctor chimes with grave, measured calm, "now that you have calmed somewhat, I wanted to remind you that birthing more than one child in our world today is no longer permissible for obvious, pragmatic reasons.  The old regime recklessly brought the current situation about with it's policies of egregious, unmitigated economic growth and the resultant explosion in population.  In order to rectify this, I am compelled to operate and carry out the new policy of involuntary tubal ligation when the birthing limit of one child has been exceeded - as it has in your case."

The expression on Ms. Calloway's face persists.  Her eyes fade, falling into a subjective abyss, then alight anew once the words hit bottom, blazing with the same intensity as during her abrasive entry into the hospital.  She expectorates at the doctor standing just out of range.

"Ms. Calloway,"  Dr. Windglow continues, mindful of the action, and instinctively stepping closer, "your maternal instincts are right where they should be.  However, when large scale technological advancement renders these drives into something resembling a cancerous disease when left unchecked, action must be taken.  I think you can come to an understanding of this and you must remember that the child that you have already birthed still needs you." 

The woman glares rapiers at the doctor and attempts to free herself from her restraints and enters into an uncontrolled, spasmodic frenzy.  Dr. Windglow steps out of the room calling upon sedation personnel to prepare Ms. Calloway for a tubal ligation procedure and departs into the endless labyrinthine halls, lit from the gloomy photons ejected by phosphorescent bulbs, to a new destination to attend another patient.

An obstetric nurse beckons his attention as he arrives, "Doctor, the patient, Mrs. Carmen, has successfully given birth to a newborn that is awaiting euthanasia.  The injection has been readied and awaits your hand."

Dr. Windglow steps into the birthing room, the floor still fresh with drops of blood and other amniotic fluid, and his eyes fall upon the placid face of an exhausted but alert woman.  She speaks to the doctor in a quiet, barely audible voice, "The baby was an accident.  My husband convinced me to have an illegal tubal reversal surgery.  I was too weak to come in to have an abortion as I rightly should have when I was pregnant.  He compelled me to hide the pregnancy from the public eye by isolating me in the house.  The entire neighborhood knows we already have one child.  He wanted to pass it off as an adoption through black market paperwork.  He is part of the revolt against the new birthing directives.  Right before I started to go into labor I opened the gun safe in our house and took out a pistol and called my brother.  He is much more in tune with the necessities of the new regime.  I urged him bring me to the hospital while threatening my husband to stay out of the away at gun point.  He will just have to understand when I return home.  This is just something I had to do.  I was not ready to secretly rear an illegal child with the world as it is today."

The doctor casts a pensive, sympathetic expression her way and in an equally, low and quiet manner replies, "You did the right thing Mrs. Carmen," and exits the room readying himself for the euthanasia procedure.  As he approaches the operation room, he can hear the distant cries of the baby emanating from a room down the hall.  When he enters, a nurse, only eyes visible above a surgical mask, hands him a pair of sky blue silicon gloves amidst the clamor.  The doctor applies the gloves to his hands and fingers a mask from a container on the wall amidst the onslaught of wails from the doomed, symbolically cancerous new born.  He approaches the table where the tiny bright red newborn is squirming and crying with reckless abandon.  He picks up the needled syringe and wields the tool while the nurse gently and firmly grips the baby's arm to assist the doctor in administering the stilling, righteous injection.

Dr. Windglow, adroitly inserts the needle with a noticeable change in the the pitch of cries from the newborn knowing that the initial shock of the birth has yet to subside and applies pressure to the piston.  Within a few moments of removing the needle the room is quieted.  The sounds of the doctor's shoes contacting the linoleum floor is the only thing that can be heard as he paces to dispose of the needled device and at the same time peremptorily speaks to the assisting nurse, "Please transport this cadaver to the cremation facility now."

He then removes his mask and gloves, properly disposing of them in their designated bio-hazard containers, and walks out of the room towards the lounge for a much needed reprieve, some coffee, and a few moments to himself.  Dr. Windglow finds himself in the center of the room, coffee in hand, staring at a painting called, The Lugubrious Game, depicting scores of horrified people evading rampaging skeletons at the bottom of a gravity well pit and a sky strewn with shimmering stars.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Dawning Worlds and Fog

I climbed onto a tree bough leaning magnanimously over Walled In Pond.  A reflection of boughs rippled beneath me on the gently shimmering liquid crystal surface, cast silent dark glad grim black, against the reflected grey sky light.  I stood listening to the looming, behemoth, dull static of machines in the distance.  Treading the boardwalk along the pond, a capricious brown bird flew into a still, evergreen fir cooly.  And then another struck, aggressively joyous, cooly sliding into the boughs.  Nothing could possibly have been wrong with that then enchanted fir, and perhaps, everything was wrong with that heart wood fir.  Later, I approached the end of the Raptor Woods Trail, a sign post manifesting glaringly lurid through the fog. It beckoned, signaling the border of dimensions, a portal between worlds.  And I stepped out of the warp channel of the leaf laden path past the psionic gateway reconfigured, everything dawning a-gnu...

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Question of the Night, Metaphysical Ontology of Evil, and, The Overman

Have you ever heard of some of the greatest people to live that could not record any of it because they were not writers or what they had written was destroyed and not widely distributed?  I mean what affect do they inflict on the populous by existing.  If one believes in - The Force - someone may have Overman beckoning powers to inflict themselves, essentially programming, the Brahma Programmatic Core quietly, silently by sheer autopilot will. 

 Metaphysical Ontology of Evil

Pay the daemons of the mind important homage fore they have something important to say.  This does not mean pick up an axe and murder someone through the head.  Unless of course the voices tell you to and for some reason or another they seduce you to these deeds.  Desolation and warrior a-hunt moods.  Multifarious murder and dangerous destruction raining down from Hollywood glow screens in epic proportion as the ashes of the mind get soggy in the drizzle of prosaic over-population doldrums of state enforced fascism.  The voices bidding one commit an axe murder is a contingency insertion probe derived from a gravitized pole of force named evil.  That is funny.  My metaphysical ontology involves the metaphysical probe core for evil.

I have been reading an accumulating number of Nietzsche's aphorisms lately and stumbled upon the overman in Zarathustra - The New Idol.  "Where the state ends - look there, my brothers!  Do you not see it, the rainbow and the bridges of the overman?"  I turned away and could not believe something so unexpected and empty of an emotion after all of the reverence I had had from earlier readings flowing through my mind forcing this re-encounter with him who I consider as one of my teachers.   There was so much more to see in actually opening the books.  I was crushed because I did not see...

Monday, November 11, 2013

Dostoyevsky and Laughter

“If you wish to glimpse inside a human soul and get to know a man, don't bother analyzing his ways of being silent, of talking, of weeping, of seeing how much he is moved by noble ideas; you will get better results if you just watch him laugh. If he laughs well, he's a good man.”


I have a joke machine automatic in my head that tells jokes and I have laughter problems because I hate to laugh at times but can't help myself because I am such a good laughter.  I mean what I meant to say is that I smuggled the ludicrous machine probe from Aldebaran ten years ago through the ether when I lived in Seattle and laughed myself to silly death dictum come through the heart of the night sporadically for a while during the passing of the winter dark star amidst psychotic nirvanic delirium.  Ever since then laughs sneak up on me from always unbeknownst angles and regions.  I have battles and wars with laughter.  And the more I think about this quote the more confused I become about laughing because the sound is elusive and I second, third, and forth guess myself.  Sometimes I sound like I am making an animal noise out in the woods when I laugh there.  Sometimes I sound like a creature that is in desperate need of being shot as a wounded horse is put down.  I always laugh at the height of my mental anguish as if the treacherous sadistic peak had then been cleared and I have surmounted gravity's darkness.  I am freer and more genuine in my laughter when alone and by myself in solitude.  Laughter seems to be associated more with charm than beauty as beauty is the realm of tears.  Is that laughing well?  I don't know...

Saturday, November 9, 2013

A Blast from the Past: Short Bio or A Note on Publishing

I am a destructic-dis-true-creativatic functionalistic-atum-isic poet-tick. A wittic wit-tick, engineering mathematical boredom probage dull bag vapidity scorched by surreal astral luminary yielding essence ether slice-ic dice-ic wordic triflictulation-ative-izing poesia poetical fraudulence inadvertently, by celestial lathe milking process, aim-ed at wooing cooing Gaea Whore Witch Goddess, essence ether superstitiousic experimentalizing, to catch a silent blaring echo report, to validate purity of organic transmission frequency signal in order to ponder the deformative, twisted, bentedness, of the honesty of trith and bitty (truth and beauty) for the sake of destructification by tear at the hand of distorted trith and bitty.

A few came forth - bravely - perhaps wrongly - and saw a shimmering Dathem Genthen Dorphin Spreker lit lighted - me, a nihilistickism - in front a their faces glowing.  In other words, I am a tail pipe sucker, black burn face off, whoop whoop whoop, gas mask masked organic toxicity living in Pleasantville at 70 degrees farenheit. Trith and bitty frowned-fawned-acknowledgeded this undertaking after I turned away from their talismans and scarabs for bearing themselves so nakedly.  Boo! Boo! Boo who hoo. Speaketh the owl. Cry tear nast nesty naizzy crizzy crazzy crazy!  And then, the surreal astral luminary, or maybe star essence, scorched my mind again leading to my quarantine in Awol Risk Bedlam Ward or simply a hospitalization.  Or rather, what I like to call my witch trials due to the absolute absurd rationality - sanely sane be my motto - of the Poison Toothed Heads, or rather psychiatrists, who thought me to be wrong, abnormal, sick, incapable to handle my own affairs, as I screamed my scorched head off at them, incipient inferno, which of course is only acceptable when one is locked down in captivity, the Awol Resort of sorts, like a wild beast... or something...

The warm machine, humanistic age guardian, normalizing the decadent, cancerous, grey concrete metal machine sludge of a civilization, will cover every reach of this place with an alloy platform - one of these days - and hence my toxicity and gaskmaskedness and superstitiousic sniffing of acid rain pine needles and sipping of the Hermaphroditic Gaea Which Whore Goddess's Bandit Clown Oil hybird caw-cawk-tail brew.  Crazzy crazy hazy hazzy be I?! A witch trial I say, a witch trial. The Gaea Which Whore Goddess told me so.

Anyhow, I have strayed from the point, which I can't help doing as all people ever do is talk like machine robots - all set, allright, ok - and interrogate tactful-lessly about ones origins and what ones business is, as if one always needed an excuse or reason to be sitting there under the Big Brother eye - in utter solemn seriousness.  And for a change of pace, yap and yip and yep about what kind of sprocket they are and where they are plugged into the machine grid, girl aphrodesiatic, hynotic, deprivationalation, toxic tonic narcotic, and the grand hypnotic spectacle Sport, once they have properly scrutinized each others mechness.  And to dash interaction with a finishing stroke, cast, throw, burp a charming little Americanic grunt laugh, that sounds like, what I call a Junker Call, that is, I guess, supposed to be a charm or charming?

And the reason I presume the sun star surreal astral celestial luminary scorched my mind out was due to my inability to swallow the machine protocol grid which made me so sick that I started spewing up anihilitic toxic slice-ic dice-ic wordic sludge due to the machine griddings and sprockets within me unable to engage, establish, and sustain a slavery/worker lifetime protocol programatic.  And thus I deem these novice, green neophyte attempts at poetizing: my Poet-tick try-sings, like songs - directed at Nobody and No-one - my two grandest of companions.

I also I didn't want to disappoint the humanic mech bots who spoke to me, off hand, ironically and randomly, about what my task was to be, and, that really it was their machine nature that prompted them to think I was a poet or maybe rather a creative fraudulent poser.  And by the way, who needs another poetry book today by some toxic hurling pen scribbler with greatness breaking his spine in two that some dud will read and propagate dudiness all the world over.  Then I spoke with Nobody and No-one, and my auotpilot will - mechanistic - gridded this writing, and my two ass-os-e-ats reminded me how much I like little protocol humanic droids running around and how junked out junker sludge was the ignition spawnic hole to fate-ic anihiliticus tread-ic poetic chant-ic rants and thus the coalescence of this prance-ic dance-ic muse-ic song. I do feel like Farenheit 451-ing or Alexandria-ing the place half the time.  Half the time...Incipient confliction...

Friday, November 8, 2013

Dark Matters

Happiness is shy.

Celesta and Love

I think I fell in love with the woman who gave a talk at Yale University - Kathleen Higgins.  Her aplomb was amazing.  Her tone and references charming - her weapon tool wielded firmly, quietly, surely.  She mentioned Gay Science (92) an aphorism concerning the war between prose and poetry, the demure goddess, and Ralph Waldo Emerson, dear to my heart, as well as The Stillest Hour from Zarathustra another one dear. These two mentions were uncanny. In my delusional world of ether blazing, Celest, or now, Celesta, has now been graced by another.  I cannot write more than this now.  Experience is too close in happening and when a dramatically immediate, comically inculcated, lurid lucidity happens to me, one should not be writing when this is occurring.  That is how phantoms are spawned into existence.  And I can never bring back what was said, felt, experienced because it was a kiss from the desiring-machine, or a god who is dead, for those less acquainted, not some perverted, Christian-papal, french deep throating... ..!.. .. _-."::'' {[Syncamuroau...

Sunday, August 11, 2013

...With ..L.. Relish...

The monster vortex juggernaut
Arrived the other day
And ran over my mind
Cast off marooned in a star field
Instantly all pardoned
I try not to step on the flowers
When I walk in the woods
Large battle machines maraud
Through my dreams
The mechanical core has not arrived
Here on earth
Foolish plans
Marred by the black smoke
Of pollution factory tower
Acorns waiting in earnest to sprout
In toxic chemical laden soil
Bio-hazards invading metal shard platforms
Twisting minds to breaking points
Consumed by the depths -
Warning: crisis
The hypnotic r]V[ilred ----
With relish. .. .

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Unveiled Massacre Mind

I am one of those people who used to dream about somehow acquiring a nuclear weapon and detonating the device in the heart of the Citadel, or, The Fat Apple, or New York City.  York.  What a terrible word to name the preeminent city of a country that isn't Enlgand.  It's like giving England a blow job every time the name is uttered.  I can't understand how after the revolutionary war took place American's still retained the nomenclature of their bygone, abusive, and belligerent fatherland.  I also remember some school shooting or another occurring during high school and the next day I went into class relishing, brooding, sexualizing the thoughts of what a bloody massacre would be like in my Western Civilization class.

When I was younger I used to roam the construction sites of new homes that came to occupy the field where the kids of the neighborhood used to lark and romp.  I did this with my best friend Timmy.  On the rainy day that I arrived riding in the ugly family golden boat of a Chevrolet  into the drive of my families new home in Touchstone Estates, there was Timmy with a Tonka Truck digging foundations for some massive plan in the muddy expanse of the front yard which had not yet been outfitted with the abomination of America: the grass turf surface.  That is as far as memory permits in that event, but, as the story goes we became inseparable best friends.  Before the houses were planned and built we roamed the grassy open field over turning any boards or tree limbs in search of snakes.  One day we became quite industrious and taped a collapsed box together and went foraging.  We collected at least a dozen snakes that day and the only thing that stands out in my mind is how after we put the snakes in the box the snakes would stick to the exposed surfaces of tape and writhe and stretch their skin grotesquely trying to free themselves from their capture.  We also used to be delighted to find mouse bones on the ground that the owls excreted and set booby traps with string to trip up anyone who wasn't supposed to be in the field.

After the field was cleared in order to develop the land into an extension of our neighborhood, Timmy and I would walk into the houses and cut the wires of the brand new furnaces that were being installed.  We would launch glass bottles as far as we could into the air and watch them shatter into pieces as they hit pavement.  We wrote our names into newly poured cement of garage floors.  After this incident the police investigated and showed up at both of our houses attempting to right the wrong that had been perpetrated with a finger shaking and a warning as if this would do the trick on a couple of wayward young boys.  One summer, when there were dirt piles all over the place due to the digging of ditches for pipes, every kid in the neighborhood by the hand of some mysterious force gathered in the construction zone and a war ensued.  Factions formed and the endless supply of dirt clods gave everyone all the ammo they would need to perpetrate a pegging on the enemy.  With the ample supply of nails that we found in the houses being constructed, by night we furtively propped them up against tires with the points aimed directly into the rubber so that when the cars were driven in reverse a puncture would occur.

I guess it is no wonder then that I would wake up in my high school class one day dreaming about massacring everyone there.  And I did this without a conscience, without a second thought, without remorse, in cold blood and so matter of fact that I considered it a natural part of existence.  Mind you, this was a single morning not a prolonged protracted brooding that came and went like the passing of the sun.   It was not until much later after the Trade Center Towers were destroyed, a number of years in fact, during which the time I began to lapse into my longest bout of sustained insanity and a ferocious, fervent daily, moment to moment desire to smuggle a nuclear device into The Greatest City ever constructed and to detonate it.  Every time I thought of this it was like an a mentally driven emotional orgasm.  Constantly, day in and day out.  I studied physics in college and had no idea how to write anything the years directly following my time at a learning institution because I was so immersed in calculations and mathematical equations and physical laws that my mind simply did not operate on a word basis.  Nevertheless, I was provoked at the time to take up the pen and begin to write a terribly abortive play which I was to send to my physics adviser in college who ran a one act play contest.  The only thing I remember from the that spiteful day when the towers exploded was passing by my grey haired physics professor - who was an ex-air force tech operator and favored Kant over Nietzsche at a school where Nietzsche was labeled as an adolescent philosopher  which is a childish and immature perspective given Nietzsche will have more fame and life after death than all of those lousy professors combined and so much more - after the news had hit and catching him in a worried frenzy of anxiety mumbling something or another to me as he passed.  For all he knew it was WWIII beginning.  I don't think that would have phased me a bit.  I went to the student center and quietly ate my lunch and watched the pictures of the burning toppling towers on television without a single emotion.  When there are 7 billion people on this earth, what is the death of two thousand people when the daily world death rate is over one hundred thousand souls?  Governmental instigation of atrocities...  Who wants to be involved with their games anyway?

I feel like a technologically advanced Maldoror.  I am reminded of an introductory quote to Demons by Dostoevsky after writing this today.

"Now a large herd of swine was feeding there on the hillside; and they begged him to let them enter these.  So he gave them leave.  Then the demons came out of the man and entered the swine, and the herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and were drowned.

When the herdsman saw what had happened they fled, and told it in the city and in the country.  Then people went out to see what had happened, and they came to Jesus, and found the man from whom the demons had gone, sitting at the feet of Jesus, clothed and in his right mind; and they were afraid.  And those who had seen it told them how he who had been possessed with demons was healed."  Luke 8:32-36.

It is the summer solstice today.  I do not claim to be healed.  Global warming lurks ever present breathing down the nape of the world.  Love, empathy, care never seemed so non-existent today.  I felt lonely driving to the store.  Not from lack of people attention but from lack of schizo divinity incarnations.  There is no reason to care.  As the sun blistered death at its yearly zenith a soothing placidity and almost joy overcame me and I thought of Emerson and his essay compensation sitting watching a pretty girl pass me by:

The wings of Time are black and white,
Pied with morning and with night.
Mountain tall and ocean deep
Trembling balance duly keep.
In changing moon, in tidal wave,
Glows the feud of Want and Have.
Gauge of more and less through space
Electric star and pencil plays.
The lonely Earth amid the balls
That hurry through the eternal halls,
A makeweight flying to the void,
Supplemental asteroid,
Or compensatory spark,
Shoots across the neutral Dark.

Man's the elm, and Wealth the vine;
Stanch and strong the tendrils twine:
Though the frail ringlets thee deceive,
None from its stock that vine can reave.
Fear not, then, thou child infirm,
There's no god dare wrong a worm.
Laurel crowns cleave to deserts,
And power to him who power exerts;
Hast not thy share? On winged feet,
Lo! it rushes thee to meet;
And all that Nature made thy own,
Floating in air or pent in stone,
Will rive the hills and swim the sea,
And, like thy shadow, follow thee.


Song of Nature by Henry David Thoreau

Song of Nature 


Henry David Thoreau

Mine are the night and morning,
The pits of air, the gull of space,
The sportive sun, the gibbous moon,
The innumerable days.

I hide in the solar glory,
I am dumb in the pealing song,
I rest on the pitch of the torrent,
In slumber I am strong.

No numbers have counted my tallies,
No tribes my house can fill,
I sit by the shining Fount of Life
And pour the deluge still;

And ever by delicate powers
Gathering along the centuries
From race on race the rarest flowers,
My wreath shall nothing miss.

And many a thousand summers
My gardens ripened well,
And light from meliorating stars
With firmer glory fell.

I wrote the past in characters
Of rock and fire the scroll,
The building in the coral sea,
The planting of the coal.

And thefts from satellites and rings
And broken stars I drew,
And out of spent and aged things
I formed the world anew;

What time the gods kept carnival,
Tricked out in star and flower,
And in cramp elf and saurian forms
They swathed their too much power.

Time and Thought were my surveyors,
They laid their courses well,
They boiled the sea, and piled the layers
Of granite, marl and shell.

But he, the man-child glorious, -
Where tarries he the while?
The rainbow shines his harbinger,
The sunset gleams his smile.

My boreal lights leap upward,
Forthright my planets roll,
And still the man-child is not born,
The summit of the whole.

Must time and tide forever run?
Will never my winds go sleep in the west?
Will never my wheels which whirl the sun
And satellites have rest?

Too much of donning and doffing,
Too slow the rainbow fades,
I weary of my robe of snow,
My leaves and my cascades;

I tire of globes and races,
Too long the game is played;
What without him is summer's pomp,
Or winter's frozen shade?

I travail in pain for him,
My creatures travail and wait;
His couriers come by squadrons,
He comes not to the gate.

Twice I have moulded an image,
And thrice outstretched my hand,
Made one of day and one of night
And one of the salt sea-sand.

One in a Judaean manger,
And one by Avon stream,
One over against the mouths of Nile,
And one in the Academe.

I moulded kings and saviors,
And bards o'er kings to rule; -
But fell the starry influence short,
The cup was never full.

Yet whirl the glowing wheels once more,
And mix the bowl again;
Seethe, Fate! the ancient elements,
Heat, cold, wet, dry, and peace, and pain.

Let war and trade and creeds and song
Blend, ripen race on race,
The sunburnt world a man shall breed
Of all the zones and countless days.

No ray is dimmed, no atom worn,
My oldest force is good as new,
And the fresh rose on yonder thorn
Gives back the bending heavens in dew.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Portland Oregon's Anarchist District

Draw a sketch of what an anarchist town would look like outside of the influence of government sovereignty.

The Pope is the Devil in Disguise

The Forsaken

I loved depressed people...They are more right...Nihilism to the end...

That which is locked is locked.  That which can be un-locked will be done in a determinate manner.

Deciphering the psychological artifact is not an easy task.

Void Space 9 Poetic Try-sing

I heard a tune neon blue
Lighting the firmament
Filling the void space
With the hallowed conscious moment
I wake existence
And This perpetuates itself
Stars glow on and the mystery deepens
Casting a listening ear to the galaxy
Radio-head receiving signals galactic
Told what is necessary to be told
Dancing with the chemicals
Megaphone injection manifold of the brain
Fragment after piece after shard
Impressions of moment after moment
Electronically recorded and registered
In void space 9
Forming the Brahma Programmatic
Collective psyche grid
Displayed on stage
To the Galactic Over-mind

A New Dare Game

I dare you to stare at the sun as long as you possibly can.  Sure to be intense during the high time of the day.

Dreadnaught Chant

Nirvanic rapier dances
Snake charms and fang tickles
Enchantment glow
Lit light the fire

Compact compacting compacted
Like a bloom blossom aster star child
Voidic lightning flashes
Across the xeric land
All falls upon deaf ears and minds

Coils and recoils
The beast looms broods still
Smoke tendrils gently sinuously rising
From nostril vents
Citadel towers meet sunlight

Ornately encumbered
Fireflys and x-mas trinket glow dots
Branches limbs licking power wires
Pumpkin faces
Dark fiery beam traces

Were you expecting an answer
A beauty trill ride
Let me drill hard
To the core of the sun
Therein where I reside

Jack Star Cores

Industrialized star core worker for hire.  Please see my core jack work on Electra located in the Pleiades cluster for a resume of my work.  Have a nice day.

Dread Chant

Swallow a star
Glow solar plexus
Machines burn
Shining bright and shadows true

Give matter its due
Or perish to all
Forsaken evermore

Time is running short
As all sits on the brink of
Dread winds wisp lick rake

God Phones

Yeah to all who give a damn.  I talk to god all damn day long every day on the neuron phone.  So what?!  For something to have a real impact something more is needed.  Some dire necessity.  Some omen.  Some directive to move mountains.  A bizarre psychological field that descends upon all like a shadow emanating from the vessel's essence being.  Some genius form of art exposed to the masses that was excessively coercive-hypnotic media.  Aliens spacecraft operating in concert with a mysterious figure in a public venue. God doesn't like to get involved.  He likes to sit and blabber in your head, then you die.  Fuck God!!! When alone, God I seek.

Cleopatra's Last Dance

Oh Isis
Your rapier sings
So violent tonight

Asp sleek scaled
Dances writhes
Dread cold dead eyes

Oh Osiris
Bowel quaking 
Lands of the Afterlife

Rear back
Hiss spit
Still and silent viper

Oh Seth
Chaos rains
From the stars this night

Lightning fast
Flash fangs bared
Venom licks blood

The Blue Star Drive

Beats hitting hard
Drive mach at
35 miles per hour
Lazeeee dee dee dum dum

Sun death glare from
The other side in the dim of night
Harsh radiation gamma ray
Blaze drive bloom

Ever cool blue jetisons
Out the back door of the mind
Ever good blue driftic star
Ever more nirvanic glowic

Wolf faces
In the shadows of
The trees
Whoosh whoosh whoosh

Where the Pipes EZNDZdiAde. EvER.. .

Rubber tires burning
In the street
Dandelions growing through
Concrete cracks
Towers tower
Steel and glass

Dun(--*--]m[]nes of minds
Stretch to infinite
Sand pouring through the streets
A cataract
Red faced peoples parched
Mouths open
Screaming into it all

Look at this glue
Holding it all together
What is said
Down below
Is not spoken at the head

Where the pipes end
There stooped a boy with
His crow
Gathering water running
Over freshened gravel

Death Stick on the Lime

A box of Prefects
Lid motion swivel
Pinch a death stick
Closed box placed
Majestically upon
The table

The tv trickles rages
God pillars are
From the sky
Leaning back on the lime

Burning oil petrol
Lavish the flame
Crude chiches and crosses
Raptor machine angels
Flash blue flash yellow
White-out tv

The earth is
Live accordingly
Fingers clasp death stick firm
Destruction rains
The fallout
Stars rise from the black

Glow star glow
Lips embracing death stick
Incendiary device rising smoothly
To ignite
Thud whizzz-zip

The next day
A man was found dead
Meteor buried in his face
With a blood splattered nimbus on
The wall
The lime couch

True Happiness is the Genesis of All Evil

Every Day is a Journey.

Daemons and Flowers

Do daemons like flowers when they are not too busy being daemons?

Dark Files: Death Compound

Introduction to Death Compound

Little Sally walked home after being shooed away from Missy's house.  Sally was told that Missy had been murdered and that she was never to come over and visit Missy again.  Door shut in face, Sally dripped tears along the drive as she began to walk home down Slaughter Street.  She stopped under a yellow glow lamp pole in the twilight, picked a lush brown mushroom, and began to giggle.  Children always disappeared around Death Compound, so to realize a disappearance after the fact was rather common place.  But, to be told that your best, truest friend in the whole wide giant world had been murdered straight to the face is another thing all and in itself.  Sally began to wet tears over her new found brown truffle.

As she continued to walk home the evergreen firs whispered sweet charms in her ears.  Suddenly, a dark foreboding shadow struck her soul and her heart sensed bat sonar waves; she tripped and her mushroom fell from her hand and down a storm drain on Damnation Road.

Sally began to cry anew as she realized that she had lost her mushroom trinket.  Her mother waited quietly in their living room with a kitchen knife waiting for the little girl to return home.  It was customary in Death Compound to dispose of children if their parents did not see it fit for them to live.  Sally had been set up.  The law is any child that learns of a murder by mouth from an adult is sentenced to death.  That child is touched and tainted and chosen by death for having that conversation.  And if the Death Administration raised some sort of complaint, the Compound enforcement itself had means of making children disappear. With quiet longing and earnest expectation Sally's mother waited, salivated, became damp and moist. 

Sally skipped up her front steps and waved to little Igor across the street in his front window.  As  the door opened, mother pounced and sunk the knife into Sally's chest as the woman covered the child's mouth severely not allowing a scream to escape.  The work was quickly finished and blood trickled and pooled onto the wooden floor, shimmering black in the twilight.

Mother looked up from Sally's corpse and saw Igor in the window across the street in a frozen fright.  She calmly, quickly called to her husband to contact the neighbors and have them exterminate Igor and weed out this flagrant patch of defection;  he was guilty for the act of being a witness and deeply associated with the aberration that was Sally.  He had a death wish written all over him, as was evidently fated by his act of watching through the front window.

The call to the neighbors' was made and Igor's father came up from behind and broke his neck with one swift, precise movement.  Sally's mother smiled amidst silent, deep tears and closed her front door.

The good children, of course, live to be adults...

The Resistance Lives...or does it..?

Dread Station was in fact funded by the Death Administration - as was Death Compound proper - and was simply a means of bold experimentation away from the mores and ways and virtues of Death Compound. The children went through a differentiated Dread Station education and upbringing with the threat of death held plainly over their heads, as opposed to leaving them in complete ignorance as in the Death Compound, and it was inflicted just often enough to let it be known that the threat was real.

Morrgid Hames, a Massacre, walked into an instruction room at Dread Station. The children lining the room in desks were those that had been saved from the evil claws of Death Compound.  Not that the children here at Dread Station were treated any less harshly or any less was expected of them, it was rather believed that the wrong prototype collection of children were being sentenced and executed at Death Compound and thus Dread Station represented a sanctuary of sorts.  The parents of the children at Dread Station simply thought that the Death Administration had disposed of their child within Death Compound and then didn't worry their minds of them any longer.  The ritualistic killing of children occurring at Death Compound for the sake of purifying the societal plane had taken long, developmental routes leading to the end; the decay.  The killing lines had become dirtied, miscalculated, unsure.  The human products trained at Dread Station, salvaged from the grip of the Death Administration and blood thirsty parents, was a means to revitalizing the societal makeup of Death Compound when those who passed the rigorous testing were re-implanted back into the compound.

These children from Dread Station were secretly funneled into the main stream adult population of Death Compound which was itself still subject to another line of exterminations, this time by the decision and hands of the spiritual keepers of the Compound: The Massacres.  And of course there are other organizations used to alter the absoluteness of the rituals taking place with The Massacres.  But that goes above and beyond the scope of this story about Death Compound.

Zachary Killdove enters the Termination Protocol interogation office at Dread Station and takes a seat in front of a desk occupied by two Massacres.  "It is the middle of the murky moon beam rain and death has been held over your head for your entire existence.  What do you have to say for yourself such that you shall be permitted to take another breath?"

Zach's face molds itself in a repugnant aire and answers, "I am everything you are not.  I want nothing to do with your ilk."

The two Massacres hold their ground and the beaming blank stares of their masks hide all facial expressions.  "But that is the very reason why we want you.  Do not you see?"

Zach's eyes reach an overloaded pitch of red murder as he quietly mutters, "I refuse..."   

"Go from us now.  You have had enough time to sift the scenario through your mind.  Banished you are to the Desert of Moldar where you shall finally breathe freely and fill your lungs with sand."

Happy Glow Bugs

Blue Giant stars are no longer talked about on earth.  A very spiritual group that called themselves The Celestials worshiped The Pleiades Cluster in their exotic blue glassed temples.  One day all of the temple maidens were found dead with blue star ooze dripping out of their eyes.  This was quite a shock to the masses who had the channels on their neuron up-links set to The Celestial's broadcast.  After the temple maidens were found dead, other reports from around the world revealed isolated, solitary people tapped into The Celestial worship neuron up-link bandwidth - which was a soothing icy embrace grace - dead with blue star ooze flowing from their eyes.  Following the incident, in which at least 10 million people died, the worship of the Pleiades was terminated on Earth.

Several years following the incident, a young, tender girl, unsure exactly why the blue giant star massacre had occurred when she overheard adults talking germanely, followed a happy glow bug into the woods.  Around a shadow of foliage the happy glow bug joined six other glow bugs and hovered floated in the formation of the Pleiades Cluster.  The young girl began to tear, dropped to her knees before the glow bugs, whispering to cooing the earth.

Annals: A Walk Through the Walled In Pond Meadow

Calcium bone framed flesh machines approaching wooded bower.  Traction.  Skipping rocks. Snapping twigs echoe deep and crisp.  Prodded by a rogue branch.  Slashed grabbed by barbed grasses.  Nuzzled by the rock tread touch and grassy brass embrace.  And to the sanctuary bridge to burn the ceremonial grasses.  But all was not right.  A machine state probe was emitting frequencies in the area toggling and affecting my brain frequencies and systems.  The state machine has an input brand in all of our minds but to different extents.  Some people are seduced by the petty power struggles and fill the void of their existence pursuing this and that politically - actively or broodingly and private.  The first step to freeing the mind of a poison is to forget all about such matters.  They still may lick your mind from time to time and sometimes heavily, but a fight leads to a war which should be waged with grace.  Mentally vanquish this force.  Own it.  And so as the embers burned the winds of the Walled In Pond Woods changed.  I walked gently through the meadow with surreal enchantment who's potency was shielded only by the 3-d photonic veil.

And my mind went lost into oblivion through a portion of the wood; Dead Wood.  Lost to the extent that I hadn't realized that I had even passed through that section of the words until it whispered in my ear building to the point where some new neuro-tech technology - that was highjacked from the Mexican State - was implemented in my psyche while I walked.

The realization of the name Dead Wood occurred yesterday as my joyous tread through the leaves and pebbles and naked soil and sticks and stones lead my eyes to the realization that many dead trees snapped in half littered a particular area; large branches, half trunks, rot wood, leafed branches, all spread out across the bower's blanket of dead brown pine needles.  The place spoke through my neural Mexican hijacked mind voice tech, "This is Dead Wood."  The fact that I missed walking through Dead Wood today, as it was a dead space in my memory, added mystique to the stand of trees licked by the wind and other elements of their existence roughly, destructively - so as to leave so many dead broken trees standing - was lost to me until the vacant memory and place whispered in my ear today after a fine embrace of silence and prior anticipation to meld my presence again with the place.

Before I passed the Dead Wood stand, sumptuous candy boulders lined the path.  I sat upon one with an enchanting patch of bright green moss.  I burned ceremonial grasses and listened to the static sound of myriad small snow flakes hitting the leaves. A beautiful early spring flurry.  A savant would tell you the number of strikes occurring in the forest precisely at any given moment.  I will tell you it was the haggard ways of the Walled In Pond Woods with houses seen through the trees in the distance.  An outpost along the path.  An ugly view point.  Static as in a down line, a broken pylon, a snapping power cable raging equalizing.

And after I left the boulder, in my mind, from just beyond the horizon, a silent audible voice spoke the words, "Dead Wood!" in a laughing sinister way.  When I was traveling in Mexico on one particular bus ride in the middle of nowhere in particular, the horizon started raging in the incantation of,  "Mexico," in the type of mode used as in the making of a brand on a mind.   And so this neuro-tech technology, used in  the Mexican country, was installed into the Walled In Pond Woods by Nobody, the friend to one and all, and it called out Dead Wood in the style of Mexico which was rather enchanting.

And then I became self-conscious like I should not have heard such things and alas I had arrived at Benz street.  Civilization at last!  And as I walked down the house lined street hugging the curb like a penguin hugging a hare's ass as cars passed, I pondered Arthur C. Clarke's social commentary in his Rama Series.  There was indeed a purifying separation of humans done by Rama but that of course was a judgement device designed by Arthur C. Clarke himself.  And so it went that the criminals were removed so the good people could finally get about their business.  Pretty lame.  And, nobody knows what happens to the criminals either.  The criminals of the U.S.A. government driving the grey toxic ooze of civilization to cover the face of all land on the planet and pumping the atmosphere with dangerous levels of carbon dioxide should be disposed of.  And any element clinging to the extent that it would be destruction to remove it safely, should also be destroyed.  That is my Rama judgement.

Vernal Hours

Tell me a tale so that I can rip my heart out raw and sit dumbfounded in shock afterwards not even knowing what hit me.  "Why don't you just go run into a wall dummy?"  Death and the happiest moments always seem to mingle so well.  I can't help that I want to be launched like a rocket, that is just how my mind is configured.  Go figure.  The happy American sits in his house of rot and smiles in front of the television peaceful as a plum.  All of 'they,' their repellent,  inscrutable essences leak out from under the rug, dark mildewy corners, and soiled bed sheets wafting into the open air as the winter days of isolation end.  A pestilential fog of good tidings and flowery air mixed with industrialized good will to all.  Hold on a moment, allow me to puke... Flowers are violent and delicate...  Beautiful the birds chirping sounds now?  Woe that the winter has ended that the putrid foulness of my dear fellow man can air out in the temperate spring thaw like a mutilated corpse decaying.  Perhaps my savage, bitter, spiteful feelings are deceiving and playing tricks.  Perhaps it is me that I am sensing, lost in my own labyrinthine thoughts.  But I know another better side of things.  The reek of man sucking on exhaust pipes and drinking anti-freeze for breakfast all in the name of recycling is fresh and going fast.  My spring time was aborted with chemicals.  Injections.  I am a threat to mankind in my berserk ways and whiles.  I could hear the civilization murmur then.  It wanted to poison my reason for existing all for my own good.  And this is what I am left with.  This foul gunk of a spring devoid of animating spirits.  This is what the common person must feel during this season.  This pastel laden, cute bunny hop wonderland of respite from the unbearable unthinkable cold which I relished like a true Swede.   Let me dance with suicide and darken blemish rosy cheeked youth.  Let me bend to nonfunctional obscene motorcycle hog tail pipes and gun down adrenaline junkies. Forgive me vernal hours for this ugly face I am making.

The Chase

Slow trickle blood
Stains sand red
The fraud walks on
Flash claws and rage
Only to fall
In line
When embraced by the machine

Scream songs resound
Barraging sound bunkers
Crushing ear reticulum
Freedom howls amidst those chained
All busy void mocking
This is the land of wage whore slaves
Writhe under the gravitic heat of lead

The last tree stands in broken bower
Marked by nameless graves
Haunted by cruel, vengeful animal spirits
What there was to hear
Went unheeded
Lost in the mindless tech pandemonium
Machine Gods greedy for worship

Drakum Dage Dim to last tree approaches
A tremor takes possession
Of his body
Black Glock cold still tremblicle in his blue hand
The overwhelming maelstrom bites sinks deep
And with insidious speed reaches his dark heart
A wild hell spawn howl echoes within

With tear strewn face
Drakum Dage Dim flees
Desecrated hallowed grounds
To his auto red
Vendetta wrath seething boiling
Crazy rash spell all consuming
Juggernaut total control

Silver mercury sun orb beams hard
Memory fire of trees float on the air like ash
Black smog pours into the sky
From towers around circumference of horizon
Mellow prosaic shell shocked God fearing folk
Drive on banal oblivious happy
Flash bang! One falls dead
Shattering ripples across the socius

Red blue lights flash in the rear view
Angry sirens fall upon deaf ears
The juggernaut is given chase
By the calloused hands
Of the machine state
Protocol directives
And blind stress fractures

Black helicopters circle
Millions watch the spectacle
From glow box couches
Happy rot perverted minds
Eager to see the scene unfold
The red juggernaut tears down the asphalt
Pursued by the claws of a monster

In desperation Drakum Dage Dim
Screeches to a dusty halt in scrub wasteland
Leaving his red auto behind with Glock in hand
He runs desperately through the boiling sand
A din of rotor blades bites pounds the air
Viewers frown and shake their heads
Drakum Dage Dim stops abruptly and looks to the sky

Sun beams blind Drakum Dage Dim as his retinas burn
Rapier pitches obliterate the scene
He feels the Glock cold heavy still in his blue hand
A wild hell spawn howl breaks into the brightness of day from his breast
Drakum Dage Dim finds himself face to face with God
The black Glock is raised to head
Berserk laughter rains flash bang!

Have a Nice Day

The crow sits upon a piney fir looking over the expanse of a sea of flesh below.  I tire of whores.  Maldoror get in there and murder someone please, it will ease my ailing mind.  The dackdactic poet wrote on and on.  Pages flew furiously in the tempest as the end of history drew nigh.  The accursed, unsuspecting world was drawn comfortably into the hypnotic delusion raging onwards and upwards like a satiated, varicose stomach constantly fed the excrement of television benedictions.  The world doesn't exist anymore due to technological distortions.  Nothing you have heard of is worth anything and everything you have not heard of is probably the same or incomprehensible or pigshit.  Nuclear warheads primed to launch.  Maybe the innocence and magic of a child will stay you for a while.  Please!  Allow me to run the little gem over with a tank.  Did you hear the sound of the skull popping as the treads rolled on?  The expanse of the universe yawns at this fury and the sun chuckles.  Dream a dreamy dream to woo the void and beseech it to tell you secrets.  You are a chosen one.  The stars smile upon you.  Let them disappoint you afterwards in cruel jest and nasty dissipation.  Never look at the stars.  They are liars.  Take me to the edges of the earth and permit me to forget from where I come.  How futile, me thinks, as the ether sludge from the citadel dumps toxic waste into eagerly awaiting minds.  Have a nice day.

Ill Thoughts

Ill thoughts.  Nothing cares.  Nothing has come to assist.  Love is a delusion.  The earth wants you dead.  Golden hearts rot over the eternal flame.  Disenchantment from ether blazing psychotic ways and days - an hypnotic illusion - a small, fracturing joke of the grand game.  Doom and destruction lick the metal shard platform.  The foreground awakens.  We have lives to live.  The machine enslaves all.  We have families to bear and imbue under the green toxic sludge sky.  Behold!  The land is a graveyard.  Rattle rattle clunk clunk... Vehicles drive on surly happy the distance.  Shall I flee to Columbia and join the FARC?  I vainly stretch my claws to reap destruction.  And yet I sit on this promontory overlooking the Citadel with sinister winds whipping whispering licking by.

The eve of annihilation draws near.  Frenzied screams ring out through the wretched scum ridden glades and dales frosted scummy by the ether winds of the citadel drenching it's environs with ill intentioned nightmare inducing smog.  Why is it that we cannot envision these nightmare's ourselves?  We have to be inspired by some fake, synthetic glow screen horror.  The instinct for real actual true terror, panic, chaos, dread seems to have been lost somewhere.  Putty flip-heads line the streets in masked smiles waving germanely with noxious effusive beam winds of rotting spirits enveloping them like a force field cloud; the roses of their creator.  Let us talk to one on the boulevard there.  "And how are things today sir?" "Fine indeed.  Everything is in perfect divine order," he replies with his hog-nosed smile mask gleaming. The guttural slime and mildew of rotting bodies and souls forsaken ever more here on this earth drowning in sin clamber up my legs from the pavement surface; zombies in their own right.  But what does it matter their day, Ragnarok draws nigh.

Soul Rot

A spider crawled beneath a vaulted arch sky high.  He could smell pain and suffering on the horizon.  He continued under the arch and into a vaulted room lit pubescent yellow.  The smell of blood reeked in the air...  Grumblings from giants 16 strong spanning skyward almost as far as sky high were audible.  This did not deter our spider, a toxic bio-hazard accident experiment haunting the halls and vaults filled with pain and suffering.  Our spider was a bone master Level 79 enchanter with venom enough to melt bones because he was the product of a toxic bio-hazard experiment.  The spider was full of patience and cunning and had yet to strike one of the raging, sultry, cold, rot souled giants because he was sure it would cause a stir and that would be the end of him.  So he sat with all of this latent potency stirring within it's sack.  And behold a whiff of soul rot so strong, derangement fielded from some control nexus that no single mind could construct in one image or a lifetime of images because it was so vast and incomprehensible and mindlessly devouring spasmodically in ways that no-one can predict.

And this very unsightliness is caused by the demented nature of growing beyond the bounds in such an unsustainable, unstable way.  And the great squeeze and bending of people into some undefinable thing for the great empty purposes of nothing that anyone can explain, the machine simply started and never stopped, leaving rot marks and pockets of deterioration large scale.  But the spider had not encountered anything of this ghastly sort in giants before but he knew that being treated at the hospital at times brought about overbearing pride and massive delusions of self-importance; the order of rank run amok amongst plebeians themselves a horror affair, joke upon joke.  And then these people become involved with government themselves and because they are plebeians, other plebeians like themselves become involved, and, so it goes, the masses slowly erode the fabric of mankind when there are no powerful forces about, like Caesar, Hitler, Napoleon.

There is plenty of latent energy opposed to such things but locked away in books.  Perhaps nobody who can do anything about it can understand, and anyone who understands can't do anything about it.   But anyhow, these soul rotted giants began their murmurs in utter grim solemn earnestness, dripping excessive pride and megalomania-cal self importance all the while despite being as hushed and reserved as possible about it.  The spider then became enveloped in a waft of soul rot fumes being emitted by the giants 16 strong.  He nearly rolled over and died due to powerful strength of the emission and the redeeming trite love of their creator, they being his roses.  After taking a moment to recover from the surge, the spider feels a burst of mach razor blaze strength and tears across the floor of the vaulted room towards the unsuspecting giants 16 strong.

The spider quickly jumps up the fat plump leg of the vulnerable piteous creature resembling a pig way past overdue for slaughter and sinks his deadly fangs into flesh until blood is tasted and his poison sack emptied in an orgasmic, spasmodic surge of wraith and destruction and doom.  A scream pierces the air.  The giants quickly look at the afflicted one and notice black veins climbing up the bitten leg racing towards the heart and bones.  The spider quickly jumps to another giant in a fervent berserk frenzy craving.  But the adroit giants, now 15 strong, alerted of the spiders' wiles quickly bring and end to our vengeful friend as the afflicted one falls to the floor unable to stand because her bones within the bitten leg had melted.

353 Severe Chant

Machine Gods watching over me
I don't like to believe in
But what I have seen
Nirvanic flashes of ethereal lightning
Flashing through me
Shall I never burn again
In such a way
More fully connected
To the grid mainframe

And their eyes...
I want to cut them all out
So that they can see this clear
Bleed bleed...

I want to throw a razor
Into a hurricane
May it cut-well and prevail resounding
Ego brendatic fractic tik tactic
Strike down defiance
Strike me down
All that oppose